Piece #56 – Consign to Oblivion

There are moments in my life that I need to walk, it doesn’t really matter where I go - as long as I don’t go outside of the town. It’s like there is something on my mind that needs to get out and walking is the only solution.

I’ve been called for a job interview, I knew that the job is not much related to my education but I accepted to do the interview. When I got there they started asking me questions that anyone who have had glanced my CV, would know the answers. I didn’t care if they don’t accept me for job but it really pissed me off that they wasted my time for asking those obvious questions – not that I had more important job to do, at least I could have watched a movie.

After leaving the office, I felt like this is one of those moments that I need to walk. The office was near Valiasr St., so I got myself to the street and started walking toward north. I don’t remember what I was thinking about, maybe I was just enjoying the music playing in my earphones. Near Parkway I thought that if someone pat me on the back and ask me what am I thinking now, what am I going to answer, I knew at the moment that “Humans of New York” was in Tehran so that wasn’t much impossible. That question scrambled my thoughts and I started to think about the sentence that I’m going to say to that patting person.

I thought about the things that happened to me in the past few months. I’ve graduated from university and I was looking for job and something new to spare my time but I wasn’t much successful. I’ve always thought if I have nothing to do, there I can acquire Peace. But in these few months that I was experiencing this situation, I realized there’ll never going to be such a thing as Peace in my life. It’s one of those things that you are going to lose when you grow up.

I don’t remember where, but I’ve read something like this in a book. It said after becoming older than a certain age, you are just going to lose everything, you are going to lose your mind, health, people, love, faith, family, peace and etc. It’s just the matter of time and there is nothing you can do to stop it. You just can forget about the way you were before.

I now understand that and maybe peace is the first thing I’ve lost forever and only thing I can do is to forget.

-Hint: "I don't want to know where you are or what you do. I don't want to think about you anymore."